Thursday, August 31, 2006 @12:56 PM
I'm so upset with
MYSELF NOW!!!! Resulting in me not sleeping well & was awake at ard
8am le! REASON & WHY?????? Cos aft meeting with HW on Tuesday in town whereby she was so kind enuff to borrow laptop from her fren to teach me Photoshop's functions and had even burnt a CD for me to download the software!! And now I
forgot some of the steps she taught me le!!! Like how to collage photos etc... cos I tired few times but can't seem to work it out leh!!! Arrrrrggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhh
WHY AM I SO STUPID!!!! So damn pissed with myself!!!!! ;(
REALLY!!!! Only can blame on myself
why I din bring along notebook & pen to jot it down!!! Only rely on my brain memory!!!! ; {
Damn SAD now!!! STUPID ME!!!! So u see....
WHO can I BLAME????? MYSELF right???!!! Serves me right for being so confidence that I can rem all that she had taught me!!! ;{ *shit*Now I have to see if she's online so I can ask her AGAIN!! ;( Felt so useless & paiseh!!!! Arrrrgggghhhhhhhhh really wan to bang myself against the wall!!!!
STUPID CC!!!Ok watever lah!!!! For now I just blog abit on wat's gng on recently!!!
Firstly my bro 2 "babies" had been qualified for the next round le!! Tat Friday nite, I still saw that now famous blogger-
Feliza Ong I think so... And she happened to kw my bro lor... !! From some online forum ba....Ha.... Initially I din really recognise her until Dar mentioned!! ;p Ok she's pretty & hot lah!!! So is my bro's another fren called Nana!!! Think tat nite, Dar really has had some eye-candies lor cos got pretty babes ard and some "show gals" in her bikini tops!! ;) Haa.. Oh ya oso happened to saw that Ben Yeo nearly with his frens! Did I mentioned that Ben Yeo and my bro look quite alike!!! Haa... other than their hair-styles, think their facial features and body build quite similar lor!!! *lol* So tat's some piece of good news and secondly my creations are gng to be sold soon in NUS 's coming bazaar le!! ;) Tats y recently I have been busy re-stocking some of my jewellery and chains & etc & updating more designs!!!
But...... haiz.....I have really spent so......... much $$$ on buying those jewellery items and parts etc le!!! As of to-date, think I have total spent about/close to
$1k on my jewellery line le!!!!! ; Tat's really alot le considering the fact tat I can buy so much things with tat amt of $$$!! Somemore I'm not working now with
no INCOME rolling in! Haiz....... really hope it's tat worth on me spending my time, $$$ & efforts on this new "business" venture!!! Plus some of my shopping etc....
NOW I'M REALLY GNG BROKE SOON LE! My savings is depleting soon!!! ;( Did thought of gng to find some part-time job/s etc lor to substantiate my jewellery line and shopping cravings lor but whenever I tot I have to take leave sometimes to settle my wedding stuffs etc cos it's nearer to my Big Day le and therefore will be busier soon.... so how can I commit myself to a job
IF I have to take leave occasionally!!! Who wanna employ me lor!!! So now I'm
"SELF-EMPLOYED" but...... a
POOR "SELF EMPLOYED" PERSON!! *sucks* ;(
NO MONEY = NO TALK = NO SHOPPING = SAD ME!!! ;{ Think I shld really consider gng to buy some 4D or toto to try my LUCK!
*desperate ME* Given the situation like that, think I really can foresee that I have to go out work aft my wedding le........ ;( Haiz...!!! At times, I really felt so helpless & desperate! Can't possibly I everytime ask my Dar for $$$/allowances ma.....! I oso
PAISEH lor tho we are husband & wife le! Cos I haven been contributing to our household's finances etc le eversince I resigned from my job, so left only Dar to maintain and pay for our monthly HDB 's instalments lah, bills lah, household's items lah, furnitures lah, future & upcoming wedding expenses lah, honeymoon expenses etc lah......................... So u see, how dare I stretch out my hands to ask Dar for $$$ leh!!!
*sad* Tats y sometimes I really think I shldn't have quit my job lor!!! : Tho Dar will give me $$$ if he's earning well lah.... But hor think mkt now not very "bullish" (dun kw did I used the correct word to describe anot lah) meaning not very 'active' lah, tats y think Dar not earning tat "huge" le as compared to early to mid of the year le.....
So how can I ask him for $$$ leh....!! Haiz.... so now I'm really quite SIAN!!!!
I NEED MORE $$$ NOW!!! Somemore hor.... Recently I noticed that my facial skin is not as good/smooth le!!! Now more prone to having pimples often le.....
;( Shit!!! How can right!!! My big Day is coming soon & is bout near to 2 mths plus time!! Think I need to eat some nourishments and maintain a healthy diet and try to cultivate good sleeping habits oso le!!! Not forgetting good skin-care regime!!! Actually wanna buy that Fancl's skin supplements to eat one cos is highly popular and is truely tat good lor! I meant good critics on their products lah.... But........
NO MONEY now so I can't afford to buy & try it out leh!! *sian again* I'm really
NOT a VERY HAPPY GAL now!! :(
Shall see how lah.... worst... go find a job lor!! No money in Sin is really v.jialat one for SURE!!!
Ok enuff of my grievances, I got
no mood to blog further on wat I had bot recently le........ ;(
For now, just hope that my items will sell and let me earn some profits/$$$ so that I got some income coming in.............
PLS PRAY FOR ME!!! Thxs!!!
~One desperate & sad woman~
